Still alive.

You Are Original

You're one of a kind, baby! The jury is still out on what kind though... You are creative, zany, and totally wild. You're all over the board, and having fun doing it! People may accuse you of being totally random... you just have your own way of doing things. You may go off in many different directions at once, but you always end up where you're supposed to be.

You Are a Tornado

It may seem like you can't do much damage, but you can pack a big punch. You're very powerful. You rarely swing into action, but when you do, look out! You can spin yourself into quite a frenzy. When you're in a bad mood, it's easy for you to suck others into your drama. You can be a bit of a black hole that way. At your worst, you leave a serious path of destruction. You pretty much wipe out everything in site.

Hannah xx

A bit less rage today. Probably a good thing...

Your True Passion is Learning

You feel most alive when you are deeply immersed in a subject. You have many intellectual curiosities. You are a true lifelong learner. Your learning doesn't stop outside of school. If anything, you tend to learn more outside of school! You have many intellectual interests, and you sometimes feel like you have time for them all. If it were up to you, you would all spend your time reading, studying, discussing, and thinking.

You Are Massachusetts

You are smart, serious, and quite traditional. You don't have a lot of time for junk in your life. It's likely that you're well educated and hard working. You live a very goal oriented life. You are probably socially liberal, but personally quite conservative. You would never be described as wild. But you're more diverse than people give you credit for. You're equally comfortable at a business meeting and at a rowdy sports game!

You Are Totally Whimsical

If you were a car, you'd be a sweet ride. You like to cruise through life in style. When it comes to the road of life, you slow down and enjoy the scenery. You don't want anything to pass you by. You love to drive, as long as you aren't in a hurry to go anywhere. You always prefer to take the more interesting route. You never like it when driving is a chore. Driving should be fun, not stressful!

You Are a Cirrus Cloud

You're a bit mysterious and reserved. You mostly keep to yourself and do your own thing. Some people may even consider you allusive. You're hard to track down at times. People who know you find you to be very transparent. It's always easy to tell what you're thinking about. You tend to drift more than most people. You're always trying out new ideas, friends, and even personalities.

Hannah xx

Fuck I hate drunk people. I loathe and detest them with every fibre of my being. And now they're going to be in the same house as me for at least a fortnight and I genuinely want to stab someone because I don't think it'd be a great pity if I hurt someone.

Hannah

New house. Champagne in a milk glass. Cartoons. Cleaning.

Hannah xx

If I had more money I'd buy this evening dress, this mosaic and pearl bracelet, these victorian-style leather boots and these blue over-the-knee boots.

Not to wear all at once, obviously.

Alas, I'm broke, and thus will have to make do with what I have.

Hannah xx

Sometimes I wish Portland would never end. It's always the best time of the year...

You Are a Thinker

You tend to have your feet on the ground. You think about what's actual, and you love facts. You are a rational person. You like to think through ideas, and you like the thoughts that books spark. You are a person with a few deep interests. If you're drawn to something, you learn everything about it. You are a person who values your possessions. You tend to have fewer things but of higher quality.

You Are More Like Audrey Hepburn

You are classy, stylish, and charming. You are the true definition of grace. Some people may think you're a pushover, but they have no idea how tough you can be. You tend to draw people in with your mind. You are an intelligent and witty flirt. You are effortlessly gorgeous and naturally appealing. No one would accuse you of trying too hard.

You Are Fabulously Funky

You've got your own little groove going on. You are happily marching through life to your own beat. You've got flair and you've got style. You are delightfully quirky and special. People find you to be fascinating. And you definitely do live an interesting life You make the world a more colorful, more creative, and more inspired place. If only there were more funky type like you!

You Are Mysophobia

You are the fear of germs or dirt. It's easily for you to get grossed out or freaked out. You especially can't stand other people's messes. You are a bit of an obsessive compulsive type. It bothers you to see things out of order. You only feel comfortable when you are in charge. You admit that you are a control freak.

Hannah xx

MANY QUESTIONS SURVEY~!

Please steal and re-post...

Name - Hannah Sunshine Bastock.
Nicknames - Han, Sunshine, Chip.
Zodiac sign - Aries.
Birthplace -Darwin, NT.
Current location - Tusmore, Adelaide.
Height - 165cm.

DO YOU:
Want to get married? Yes, after I graduate.
Want kids? No.
Sleep with a stuffed animal? Apart from Aaron? :p
Get motion sickness? No.
Have tattoos? How many? Two. A cat on my right ankle, and a Leunig cartoon on my back.
Have piercings? How many? My ears are still open, my nose closed up.

RIGHT NOW YOU ARE:
Listening to - The hum of the air-conditioner.
Watching - The Tudors.
Eating - Toast and chai tea.
Wearing - Brown singlet and Hello Kitty undies (because it's 33c in our flat...).

HOW OLD WERE YOU WHEN:
You had your first bf/gf? 16.
Had your first kiss? 16.
Fell in love for the first time? 16.
Got a real job? 17.
Started paying your own bills? 17.
Moved away from home? 17.

WOULD YOU EVER:
Marry for money? At the moment I'd consider it :p
Scuba dive? Yes.
Sky dive? Yes.
Lie to spare someone's feelings? Not unless it was unavoidable/necessary.
Have a long distance relationship? Done and done.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
Love at first sight? Yes.
Soulmates? Yes.
Ghosts? No.
Aliens? Yes.
Heaven? No.
Hell? No.

WHAT WAS THE LAST:
CD you bought? The New Moon soundtrack for Little Sister.
Movie you saw? Bridget Jones.
Show you watched? The Tudors/Filthy, Rich & Catflap.
Person you talked to? Aaron.
Person you hugged? Aaron.
Compliment you received? Mum.
Time you laughed? A few hours ago at fmylife.com.
Thing you ate? Toast with raspberry jam.
Thing you drank? Chai tea.
Place you went? The letterbox.

EITHER OR:
Cats or Dogs? Guess that one. Go on, guess :p
Book or Movie? Book.
Flowers or Candy? Either.
Swim or Run? Swim.
Boxers or Briefs? Briefs.
Basketball or Football? Football.
Wal-Mart or Target? Target.
Leno or Letterman? Letterman.
Paris, France or Florence, Italy? Paris, probably. Is Venice, Italy an option?
Pepsi or Coke? Cherry coke.
Coffee or Tea? Chai tea.
Chocolate or Vanilla? Chocolate.
Summer or Winter? Winter, the clothes are more fun.
Snowboard or Ski? Snowboard.
Surf or Wakeboard? Wakeboard.
Cake or Pie? Pie - everybody knows the cake is a lie...
Pizza Hut or Papa John's? Pizza Hut.
Adidas or Nike? Neither.

REACT IN A SENTENCE!:
Abortion? Should be legalised everywhere.
The war in Iraq? Complex.
Gay marriage? Should be legalised everywhere.
Death penalty? Is murder dressed up in legalese.
Legal marijuana? Don't know enough about the issue, sadly.
Organised religion? Each to their own.

FINISH THIS SENTENCE:
I am... too hot to sleep.
I love... old books on English monarchical history.
I'm looking for... shoes that don't kill my feet.
I don't understand... Yahoo Answers. Seriously, WTF?
My significant other is... a pretty froody guy.
People say I'm... obsessed with cats.
Forever is... an awfully long time.
I think the current President is... intelligent, articulate, charismatic and attractive.
When I wake up in the morning... I need showers and tea.
Life is so full of.... bobby pins. Those things are everywhere.
My past is incredibly... ignored, mostly.
I get annoyed when... technology don't work, or Aaron has done something to the TV.
My mum once told me... that you should always stand as though you're trying to connect your bellybutton to your spine, because it gives you good posture.
I wish.... I knew what was happening next month.
My pet... is a bitch of a cat who doesn't even belong to us.
I really want some... chocolate doughnuts.
Thunderstorms make me... happy.
I have low tolerance for people who... are illiterate for no reason. Australia has the best education system in the world, and the whole "evry1 else doz it" and "its onli teh intanet" argument is lame.
If I had a million dollars... I'd feel less stressed, and would probably bathe in it like Scrooge McDuck.

ALMOST DONE:
If you could go anywhere right now, where would you go? England - I hear it's cold there.
Do you dye your hair? Not any more.
What is your weakness? Cats, John Williams music.
What's in your fridge? Too many jars of jam.
What do you like about yourself? Loyalty? Optimism? A clearly defined waistline?
What can't you live without? Showers and hot tea.
How long do your showers last? Probably too long...
What is the first movie you remember seeing? Rock-A-Doodle.

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Hannah xx

Do you know what the worst thing is about having the lease expire?

Having to leave Jingles.

She's sleek and healthy, and mooches food from everyone in a 500m radius so she's sure as hell not going to starve, but she's lying next to me purring and I can't help feeling that I'm abandoning her a la Mitten's owner in Bolt. We buy her cat food and she sleeps on our bed, but she's not our cat so there's no way we could take her with us without breaking her real owners heart. Only leaving her here is going to break my heart.

I had a dream last night about Idiot Syndrome and a man called Exultant Thromboyer. I wish I could remember it.

House inspections going so-so. We've looked at a few good places and a few utterly horrible ones. The problem is that we're in the middle of the real estate rush period where everyone is out looking for houses, so there's some pretty steep competition. I don't want to leave the eastern suburbs. Does that make me a snob? Probably. We're staying open-minded though. On the bright side, there has never been a point in my life where I haven't felt that things will work out.

Hooray for a thin veneer of mild, unwarranted optimism!

I quit my job at That Unnamed Sandwich Place (glaringly obvious code name) after less than a fortnight, which I'd normally feel bad about. But it turns out that the store was horrible and the two other new people quit immediately too, so it was less a case of me being finicky and more a case of them being horrible employers. Anyway, I went online today and they're re-advertising the position - hopefully they'll work out that unpaid overtime and a messy store = horrible staff retention. Morons.

Also, I'm now a brunette.

More later. Or possibly next week.

Hannah xx

2009 - A YEAR IN PICTURES

I'm sure I was probably asked
Before I was born, by someone from somewhere
"I will make it so you can see
Either the past or the future, so
Which do you want?"

And then I probably chose the past
So that I can become, so I may become,
A kind person rather than a strong person
So that I understand what "memories" are







Continuing, that somebody said to me
"Arms, legs, mouths, ears, eyes,
Hearts, breasts, and the holes in your nose,
I'll give you two of each,
So isn't that great?"

But I asked a favour
"I'm fine with just one mouth" I said
So that I don't fight with myself
So that I can only kiss one person









This kind of feeling that I want to forget, but can't
What do you call it?

That person with a slightly displeased face
He began to speak again, because he had to
"The heart, which is most important
I'll put one in each side of your chest, so
Isn't that great?"







Yet again I asked a favour
"I'm sorry, but as for me
I don't need the heart on my right side
Sorry for always saying selfish things"

That is so that when I meet an important person
And I hold her
I will understand for the first time
That our two beats sound on both sides of our chest.

The left is mine, and the right is yours
The left is yours, and the right is mine
So that when I am alone, there is something missing
So that I do not live on alone





This kind of feeling that I want to forget, but can't
What do you call it?

My chest is a flutter, but this kind of feeling
Tis so nostalgic, what do you call it?





"By the way, There's just one more thing
Should I add 'tears' as an option?
Even without it, there is no impediment, but
Some people don't add it, because it's a pain.
What will you do?"

And then, I asked for it
So that I can become, so I may become
A kind person rather than a strong person
So that I understand what "importance" is



"So, by the way, as for the flavour of the tears
Choose a flavour you like
They're sour, salty,
Hot, sweet,
Choose any one you like
Which one do you want?"

Has everything been granted
The way you hoped?
So show me your face
That is always crying
Well, show me proudly"



"Thank you very much
Sorry to have troubled you with so much
May I ask just one last thing -
Have we met somewhere before?"
-Radwimps, 'Ordermade'

Hannah xx

I love the festive season. I really do - at no other point does emigration sound so tempting. Needless to say, Christmas this year did not go well and I fully plan on leaving the state before the next one.

The next couple of months look to be interesting anyway. And by interesting I mean strange.

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Stolen apples taste the sweetest
See them hanging in the pale moonlight
You won’t feel those cuts and grazes
As you reach out for your prize in the night
And pluck it down and take that very first bite

“Don’t tell anyone our secrets”
Said the farmer to his darling wife
“There are some here in the district
Not so happy with their lot in this mean, old life.
Now, sweetheart, won’t you pass me the paring knife”

Stolen apples, plucked down in their prime
Stolen apples, hanging heavy on my mind

Eve called Adam in the garden
“Hey Ad, come over here and look at these, won’t you try some?”
“Oh, no” said Adam “That’s forbidden!”
“Come on now, baby” said Eve, “What could be wrong with just one little one?”
So Adam bit and cried out “That’s the bomb! That’s the bomb!”

Stolen apples taste the sweetest
Stolen apples taste the sweetest
- Paul Kelly, 'Stolen Apples'



Hannah xx